Two Questions for Lent – A Sermon on Genesis 2:15-17; 3:1-7 and Matthew 4:1-11

Lent 1A, John Calvin, Self-Knowledge, Self-Denial, Temptation, Matthew 4:1-11, Genesis 2:15-17; 3:1-7, Sermon, Wilderness, Adam and Eve

Lent 1A: Genesis 2:15-17; 3:1-7 and Matthew 4:1-11

Over the last several years I’ve begun to see and understand Lent and temptations, the struggles in my life, in a different way. It used to be that I thought about those things in terms of self-denial: just say no, don’t do this, don’t do that; and everything will be fine. But then life got complicated. It wasn’t that simple or easy. Just say no and self-denial were no longer enough. I don’t mean that I exchanged self-denial for self-indulgence. I am saying that our lives deserve and demand more than just say no. Here’s why I say that.

I suspect we’ve all had times and experiences in our lives when just say no did not apply. It just wasn’t relevant because the issue wasn’t a yes or no kind of question. Or maybe there were times when the rules simply didn’t cover or speak to the situation. What then? Where do we turn?

There have also been times when I followed the rules. I did the right thing. I said, “No.” I was who I was supposed to be and did what I was supposed to do. Despite all that it didn’t work out the way I wanted or thought it would. Something was amiss, lacking. There was no sense of integrity or wholeness. I was compliant but not changed or transformed.

Other times I claimed particular values and virtues as the things that would guide my life but then I went out and did the exact opposite of what I claimed to be important to me. Have you ever done that? There was a disconnect between what was going on inside of me and what went on outside of me. It wasn’t enough to just say no. I wanted more. I wanted congruency between my inner life and my outer world.

So I’ve begun to think about Lent and those places of struggle, what we often call the temptations, not so much in terms of self-denial but more in terms of self-knowledge. Maybe those situations offer us important learnings about ourselves.

I think we often hear today’s old testament lesson, Adam and Eve eating the forbidden fruit (Genesis 2:15-17; 3:1-7), and today’s gospel, Jesus being tempted in the wilderness (Matthew 4:1-11), and we hold them in opposition to each other. On the one hand, Adam and Eve got it all wrong, and on the other hand Jesus got it all right. On the one hand, Adam and Eve were bad, and on the other hand Jesus was good. I don’t necessarily think that’s wrong, it just seems a pretty superficial, literal, and exteriorized reading of those texts.

I’m not suggesting Jesus got it wrong or that Adam and Eve got it right. I simply want us to find a deeper meaning. I want us to find that deep thread that runs through and connects those two stories, and I think that deep connecting thread is self-knowledge. When you move beyond the dualities of good or bad, right or wrong, what you discover is that both stories are about self-knowledge.

Think about Adam and Eve. They eat the forbidden fruit. Do you remember what happens after they eat? Their eyes are opened. So what does that mean about their eyes before they ate? They were closed. They were seeing with closed eyes, a partial seeing, a blindness. There’s something about eating the fruit that opened the eyes of Adam and Eve, that gave them a new awareness, that awakened them, and brought them to a new level of consciousness. So maybe they didn’t fall into sin as much as they fell into consciousness. They experienced something of themselves and the world in the same way as does God. They knew good and evil. They saw it all. Life and their world just got a whole lot more complicated, and potentially more real and more beautiful.

Think about the times in your life when that’s happened for you. There’s been a new awareness, a new awakening, a new consciousness, and you see the world and yourself in a brand new way. More often than not that seems to follow some sort of stumbling and falling, a failure, a turning away from God, another, or ourselves.

With that new consciousness we might see beauty and goodness but we also see pain and disfigurement. We see the places of wholeness and integrity, and the places of brokenness and disintegration. And I don’t mean that we see that just in the world around us. We see it within ourselves. We see the truth and reality of our lives. We see and understand ourselves to be a mixture of both. We see our contradictions. We are neither wholly good nor wholly bad. We are both. That’s why life gets complicated. That’s why it’s not enough to just say no.

If we look beyond their failure to say no, we can see that the garden experience brought Adam and Eve to self-knowledge. By the same token if we look beyond Jesus saying no we can see his wilderness experience as having brought him to self-knowledge.

Immediately before Jesus goes to the wilderness he is baptized. While Jesus is standing in the baptismal waters a voice from heaven speaks and says, “This is my Son, the Beloved, with whom I am well pleased” (Mt. 3:17). Then Jesus is led by the Spirt into the wilderness to be tempted. He goes to the wilderness having been told that he is God’s son. He goes to the wilderness having heard that he is beloved of God. He goes to the wilderness knowing that his Father is pleased with him. And all of that is a given before Jesus ever faces the first temptation. Whether Jesus said yes or no to the temptations would not determine if he is God’s son, if he is beloved of God, or if God is pleased with him. Those are not the consequences or rewards for passing the wilderness temptations but the preconditions of those temptations. Grace always precedes us.

So maybe Jesus’ time in the wilderness wasn’t so much about proving or giving something to God as much as it was about Jesus learning and experiencing something about himself, that he really is God’s son, that he really is God’s beloved, and that God really is pleased with him. Maybe there was something Jesus needed to learn about himself so that he could come out of the wilderness knowing who he was, knowing to whom he belonged, and knowing his message for the world. The self-knowledge Jesus gained in the wilderness formed and shaped his public ministry of healing, teaching, and preaching.

If the wilderness was a place of self-knowledge for Jesus might it not also be for us? If the garden and their failure to say no was a place of self-knowledge for Adam and Eve might it not also be for us?

So what if we took these next forty days of Lent and we let go of the questions about good or bad, right or wrong, and whether we are enough, and we sought self-knowledge? I am not talking about self-knowledge in a narrow, selfish, and egotistical way. I am talking about that self-knowledge that is deep and profound, that reveals our truest and most authentic self, that makes us face and examine ourselves; not to make judgments or inflict punishment but to seek healing and new life. I’m talking about the self-knowledge that turns our gaze back to God.

If we choose the path of self-knowledge then we’ll need to observe ourselves, be watchful, and ask difficult questions. What are the painful and wounded places in me that cause me to act out in ways that are not good for me or others? What are the buttons in me that get so easily pushed, that cause me to react with words or actions that I really do not want to say or do? What are the ways in which I have contributed to the pain of the world, and how might I now begin contributing to the healing of the world? In what ways have I knowingly or through fear lived a life less than who God knows me to be? When and where have I fallen short and missed the mark? What are the patterns and habits that direct and control my life? What possesses me? Do I truly believe I am God’s beloved son or daughter? If so, how do I live that? If not, why not? In what ways am I living an authentic life and in what ways am I not?

This self-knowledge will take us so much further than will self-denial. The doesn’t means self-denial is not important or that it does not have a positive and necessary role in our lives and in Lent. I just want to give self-knowledge a higher priority and put self-denial in service of self-knowledge.

I think of past Lents when I gave up meat and wine. For forty days I denied myself meat and wine. And you know what I did on Easter? I had a nice steak and a glass of wine! What did that do for me? How did that grow me and change the way I see and engage the world? What did that do for my relationships? Did it make me more real, more loving, more authentic?

It was a successful Lent but I am not sure it was a holy Lent. I am not sure it really changed me or brought me to a new life. What did I learn about myself? I don’t know that it did much other than prove I can give up meat and wine for forty days. While that’s not necessarily bad or wrong, I think there is more to Lent, more to you and me, and more to our lives. I think God wants more for us, and offers more.

I have a mentor and friend, a retired priest, that I call every couple of weeks just to check in. Sometimes I call with a question or when I’m when I am not sure what to do, or when life or the priesthood get really hard. I’ll describe to him what’s going and at some point he usually asks me the same two questions. First he asks, “Mike, what are you learning about yourself?” His second question is, “What do you need from me?”

What if we let those two questions companion us through Lent? What if we heard those questions being asked of us by God. What if we went through this season of Lent with God asking us, “What are you learning about yourself? And what do you need from me?”

That just might be the start a holy Lent. It would be Lent in which our eyes were opened to the truth about ourselves, who we are, and what we do. It would be a Lent in which, despite things done and left undone, we would rediscover and maybe hear for the first time that we too are God’s beloved children with whom he is pleased. Maybe it would be a Lent in which we could let go of judgments and score keeping. Maybe it would be a Lent that would lead us to new life, a fuller life, a life in which we discover that we are God’s glory.

Have you ever thought of yourself as the glory of God? Most of us probably don’t. Maybe that’s because we don’t really know ourselves in the way God knows us. Maybe if we did we might see, think, speak, and live differently. “The glory of God,” said Irenaeus, a bishop of the third century, “is a human being fully alive.”

What are you learning about yourself? And what do you need from God?

Let’s be God’s glory. Today, tomorrow, and the day after. Now and forever.

7 thoughts on “Two Questions for Lent – A Sermon on Genesis 2:15-17; 3:1-7 and Matthew 4:1-11

  1. This was a wonderful message and thank you. My first take concerns the two questions at the end. Perhaps by exploring the first question we can answer the second question. The more we know ourselves the more we realize that we are one with God and do not really “need” anything from him we just need to know ourselves. We are already, as Jesus was, the Beloved with whom he is pleased and our lives could be metaphors for being in the wilderness where we realize who and what we actually are. We face temptations constantly, but that is how we get to understand ourselves and learn who we are, just like Adam and Eve. What they did was not a sin. It was a decision and our decisions are what help guide us through this “wilderness” of our lives. They are neither good nor bad, but are the way for us to truly awaken.

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  2. Thanks for this Fr. Mike,
    We got lots of the devil and temptation yesterday. I very much appreciate what you say. The straight literal
    approach does seem to suggest we are all bad. I always remind myself that all of what God created was/is
    good and so your sermon is both encouraging and thought provoking.
    Thanks
    Ray Fletcher

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    • Ray+, I am glad you found the sermon to be encouraging and thought provoking. If there is original sin, then there was before that original grace – both are true in our lives.

      Lenten blessings,
      Mike+

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  3. Thank you for the meditation. As I read through the last part these words of John Milton came to me.

    When I consider how my light is spent
    Ere half my days in this dark world and wide,
    And that one talent which is death to hide
    Lodg’d with me useless, though my soul more bent
    To serve therewith my Maker, and present
    My true account, lest he returning chide,
    “Doth God exact day-labour, light denied?”
    I fondly ask. But Patience, to prevent
    That murmur, soon replies: “God doth not need
    Either man’s work or his own gifts. . .

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  4. Dear Father Mike,

    It’s me, the Byzantine Catholic. Your reflections today reminded me of a poem titled, “Contraband” by Denise Levertov. It is a somewhat different take on the ‘fall’ Adam and Eve.

    The tree of knowledge was the tree of reason.
    That’s why the taste of it / drove us from Eden. That fruit
    was meant to be dried and milled to a fine powder / for use a pinch at a time, a condiment.
    God had probably planned to tell us later / about this new pleasure.
    We stuffed our mouths full of it, / gorged on ‘but’ and ‘if’ and ‘how’ and again / ‘but’, knowing no better.
    It’s toxic in large quantities; fumes / swirled in our heads and around us
    to form a dense cloud that hardened to steel, / a wall between us and God, Who is Paradise.
    Not that God is unreasonable – but reason / in such excess was tyranny
    and locked us into our own limits, a polished cell / reflecting our own faces. God lives
    on the other side of that mirror, / but through the slit where the barrier doesn’t
    quite touch ground, manages still / to squeeze in – as filtered light,
    splinters of fire, a strain of music heard / then lost, then heard again.

    Somehow, I think of this poem whenever I read of science engaging in some new, unseemly experiments. Just because we ‘can’ doesn’t mean we ‘should.’

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    • Mary, thanks so much for sharing the poem. The idea/line about reason in excess is helpful. I don’t think reason is wrong or bad but sometimes we default to it and exclude other valid ways of knowing. We need them all but need also to learn when to use which one and how they might complement each other. I agree – just because we can does not mean we should.

      God’s peace be with you,
      Mike+

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